Hum.... When you do right...he comes!!

Well this is kinda a personal blog..but I think its ok to share!! I am pretty much 100% that everyone knows that when you are doing good and trying your best to fallow the lord and his teaching...reading your scriptures and paying a full tithe... that Satan tries harder and harder to make you fail!! But the thing is he can make your day horrible ..he can make you grumpy..he can do so many things but...the one thing that he does that is the scariest and the most effective, is feeling the presence of him in the comfort of your own home!! I know this has happened to a lot of people that I love....and it actually brings tears to my eyes even talking about it. I have been doing really good lately in trying to be the best that I can be, reading Scriptures etc.. thing that I have not been so good at before!! Last night as I got into my bed, getting comfortable with my annoying sunburned legs....I reached over and turned out the light!! And all the sudden it happened ..that horrible feeling, that feeling of the presence of evil...the feeling of uncontrollable fear!! As I laid there I knew in my heart and mind that Satan was trying to scare and enter his way into my life!! I got this feeling of my chest getting tighter and not being able to get a full breath, that feeling of not being able to speak or help yourself in anyway!! I got the courage and strength to reached over and turned my light on..!! Looking around in total fear and anxiety!! I have talked to my mom about this..and how it has happened to her, ya know you think about this and you are afraid that if anyone hears about it they will think you need to go to the Loonie bin..!! But its real and he is real. As I have talked to my mom about it..she told me that at any time any place that you are feeling that horrible feeling that you say " in the name of heavenly father LEAVE"!! And satan has no choice...he does not have the power over heavenly father and he has to obey!! So as I was laying there in total fear not wanting to move.... Saying it only in my head..but feeling like I wanted to scream at the top of my lungs I said.." in the name of heavenly father LEAVE!! .... don't get me wrong the feeling was still there but it eventually left! Now you are probably reading this thinking ..what a crazy lady..! But in all honesty..its the truth..and it happens more often than you think. It is a paralyzing feeling..a feeling of extreme loneliness..like you need help and you cant get it...the feeling of your chest being pressed upon you can barely take a breath!! Satan is real..I have always wanted to deny that someone can want you to turn away from the lord and his gospel..but its true and in that moment of weakness or hardship..he will be there. He will fight to make you miserable like him. I have been reading my Scriptures.. paying a full tithe..and trying to live my life in a way that I can return to my heavenly father..and receive the blessings that he wants me to have. And yes Satan is there. He knows my weaknesses...and of course I am not perfect!! But with all my might I will not let him take over this amazing life I am striving for. He can come and he can try..but in the end. I am going to be the strong one. And he can be the one to leave and be cast out of my life forever! So in the end I know that was kinda..whoa...but I just wanted to share..that this life is not easy..and things will be placed in your way..and they will strive to get you in that moment of weakness. But with your love of Christ and a continually growing testimony..you can overcome any evil thing that may try to enter into your life. And that I can promise:). Satan is real...and he is there..but the gospel is real...heavenly father is real..he is there..and he has the power over all men. I cant really express in words the true feelings i feel in my heart, but I hope I got a little bit of an idea out!! I know that this situation may or will happen again. But now I have a calm feeling knowing that I can overcome any hardship satin tries to put upon me! And I am so grateful that I have that knowledge:)

My little clacie!!

Well ... well ... well... This post is for clacie! Remember when we were talking on the phone and you told me about that boy!! JUST SO YOU KNOW.....$20.00 LOOKS SO GOOD IN MY POCKET!! HAHa I love you lots..and i know whatever happens is what is going to happen!! But i still hope that i win.!!!

Everything happens for a reason?

Well lately i have been struggling with the "everything happens for a reason" thing. I guess i just get frustrated because i want to know right away why this thing is happening..or why did i get this friend ... why this and why that!! So i was just looking around and found this poem....quote...whatever it is!!! I read it and it helped me open my eyes.. but i guess in the end to have FAITH in every footstep, and trust in the lord that he gives me these challenges and obstacles for a reason... so here it is....enjoy!!

Sometimes people come into your life and you know right away that they were meant to be there............to serve some sort of purpose, teach you a lesson or help figure our who you are or who you want to become. You never know who these people may be but you lock your eyes with them, and know that very moment that they will affect your life in some profound way.And sometimes things happen to you at the time that may seem horrible, painful and unfair, but in reflection you realize that without overcoming those obstacles you would never realize your potential, strength, will power or heart.Everything happens for a reason. Nothing happens by chance or by means of luck. Illness, love, lost moments of true greatness and sheer stupidity all occur to test limits of your soul.Without these small tests, life would be like a smoothly paved, straight, flat road to nowhere safe and comfortable, but dull and utterly pointless.The people you meet affect your life. The successes and downfalls you experience can create whom you are, and the bad experiences can be learned from. In fact, they are probably the most poignant and important ones. If someone hurts you, betrays you or breaks your heart, forgive them because they have helped you learn about trust and the importance of being cautious to whom you open your heart.If someone loves you, love them back unconditionally, not only because they love you, but also because they are teaching you to love and open your heart and eyes to little things. Make every day count. Appreciate everything that you possibly can, for you may never experience it again.Talk to people whom you have never talked to before and actually listen. Let yourself fall in love, break free and set your sights high. Hold your head up because you have every right to.Tell yourself you are a great individual and believe in yourself, for if you don't believe in yourself no one else will believe in you. Create your own life and then, go out and live it.

I love my MOM and DAD

Lately i have been able to have alot of things come to my mind!! Things that i am so greatful for!! Lately i have been thinking how good that i have it! And i got it all from my mom and dad! They left for tennessee for three weeks......and it reminded me of how much that they do for me and care for me and think of me!! Without them i would be a nobody!! I just hope that they know how much i love them...even if i am a brat sometimes!!! Like stealing their stuff....and ya know biting my mom..and dad:) haha....!! I basically toture them and bug them so much!! But in the end they still love me! They are an amazing example! They love the gospel and have always kept the gospel in our home no matter what!! WOW i am truly blessed to have them!! I LOVE MY MOM AND DAD!! Just in case you can not tell!!

Time goes by so fast!!

Holy cow!! I was just looking through some pictures and I found this one of me and lindsay!! It is so weird to think i was just visiting utah and we were playing in the streets!!Now we are 20 and 21..she is married i am dating we have jobs and its crazy!! I guess it just makes me realise that time goes by so fast....So i better be greatful for still kinda being young!! O goodness!!

My new invention!!

Well as we can all see..i have developed the new credit card holder.... It works really well..Try it..let me know what you think!!
Ok so we all know i am kidding right..gosh ..!!!

OH MY STUPID!!

Well it happened!! I am just like my father!! As i was enjoying myself in Spokane.... It was night time..and i am driving with jared in Idaho. And all the sudden the light goes yellow....so i can slam on my breaks and stop in the middle of the intersection, or i can go through...and so I GO THROUGH!! Oh and guess what.their was a cop..he pulled me over and gave me a $75 ticket! But he was the wierdest cop i have ever met..he would not even come up to my window. He stood like at the back window where i could not even see him, i had to turn my whole body! DUH!! So annoying!! I hate Idaho!!